People come and go, but as long as you tried to keep them in your lives, and know for yourself you tried, then you can’t really do much else, but to let go. Use hope to wash the pain away, and look forward to new people that you will encounter as you continue to move forward. Maybe they’ll come back. Maybe not. 

That disappointing feeling of the inability to help someone you care about.

Solitude, expectations, and taking people for granted. So many things that come across my mind these days. I’m getting that lonely feeling again. I’ve been through it before - plenty of times. Just use the feeling of solitude to make yourself a stronger more independent person. It just sucks to go through the same things again. When will I learn? I shouldn’t have let people get close to me, placing these expectations to only be disappointed. Friends? Guess not. Just people to kick it with. I should of have that mentality a long time ago. You live and you learn I suppose. It’s whatever. I do what I gotta do. Education being number one. Just wish I wasn’t feeling so down.. Forget what’s gone, appreciate what’s still here, and look forward to the future. All you can really do is look into the past, and appreciate the people that use to be in it. It was a time of happiness and joy, and whether or not they’re here or not, they were still once before. So enjoy every moment you have with the people you are with right now and don’t take them for granted, for they could be gone before you know it. Being comfortable, placing expectations, and taking them for granted. Solitude is gonna be your best friend.  

So many thoughts these days. I really need to control my emotions.. Use the negative emotions to my benefit in one way or another. I was convinced that relationships didn’t need the materialistic things, but I guess I was wrong. It’s ironic because having similar backgrounds should enable insight on each other lives and understanding when money isn’t there - or a car. 

All these negative feelings. Growing up so fast, and having no choice to deal with it, and not to rely on anyone to understand or help. I sure do miss the past, it was simpler and easier.. happier.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dXN3KhXCEGA 

I wonder if it’s possible for two people to have the same dream. If I’m dreaming about you, are you dreaming about me too?